ok so i know ive talked about musicals already but i saw six a couple days ago and holy shit. it felt like i was 10 seeing hamilton again. every second i got another memory of me and my old friend doing things during the pandemic. we always listened to six, hamilton, in the heights (if i got to pick the music), or taylor swift (if she got to pick). and it was so peaceful. i was still in this yellow house my family lived in from summer 2019 until like fall 2020, and i read in the tree in the front yard. we bought an inflatable bathtub and me and my friend used it as a pool. we would sculpt stuff and sew and play hide and seek because that house was good for it. after playing in the inflatable tub/sprinklers, we would go up to the attic which was so hot in the summer and we would just talk for hours. anyways, six. we would sew the costumes from the musical for our dolls and we would pretend to have them play the parts, and i was obsessed with anne boleyn. now i like katherine howard more, her song fucks me up every time. i was smiling the whole time except i cried at her song. all of the actors were so good and ugh just altogether it was great i cried a lil bit.
anyways 2020. until like august it was all fun and peaceful and i baked using the microwave because i wasn’t allowed to use the oven. i listened to musicals and sewed and did school vocab and duolingo for school. it was great and the only thing i didnt like was that i couldnt do theater anymore, and i didnt do it again after the pandemic which kinda sucks. i would do it again but im scared because im not that good. my school is doing ride the cyclone and i really want to do it but there are like 7 roles and 2 people already have guaranteed leads so i prob won’t get a good role (esp because its all school and im still in middle school), and im also pretty busy already with ballet, modern, photography, etc. what ive realized is that ive done so many things on and off that im not that good at any of them. like im bad at ballet, not that good at modern, not as good at photography as a lot of other people.
after august… it was a bit special. it wasn’t as bad as 2022 or 2023 , it was just more cringe. that carried over to 2021, which was basically my 2020.
outfits of the week (pls ignore that i screenshotted these photos from insta my icloud storage is full 😭)
i only had like 2 days of school this week because we have parent teacher conferences on thursday and friday and i threw up on wednesday. spirit week is next week so i gotta cook something up for that but the themes are monday pajama day (probs just gonna wear sweats and a tank top), tuesday school spirit (i have no idea because i got rid of all my school shirts + i don’t wear blue or green that often.), wednesday pink + red day (im going to EAT THIS UPP there was a contest last year and i hope they do it again because im so gonna win), thursday jersey day (im gonna be someone from jersey shore or something because i don’t have any sports jerseys), and friday formal (i will eat this UP. im already low-key overdressed just imagine me on a formal day). we get ice cream if everyone participates and goes to the games but the game day is a day i have ballet so i can’t (its not like i was going to anyways though).
anyways i gotta be doing better in school because i have like a c- in math so nothing is funny anymore. ik its such a stereotype for girly girls to hate math but i like can’t deal. im good at everything else like science world religions english etc etc but i just can’t deal with math.
been thinking about bands and how cool it would be to be in one but im just ok at singing and can only play the piano kind of badly. yippee. im ok at writing songs though, so maybe i should just stick to poetry and songwriting.
hanging out with a friend that i hang out with about every 3 months when the stars align but im so crazy close to her because we both had a mutual crush on each other that we didnt find out about until like 4 months later and i was also in group therapy with her. yippee ed treatment bringing people closer together (it didnt to anyone except us and made the other girls hate some british girl). god i gotta talk about my experiences at the ed place i went to because jesus christ it was wild.
closing out with my top songs of 2020 because it feels appropriate rn.
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